I got a report back from the educational psychologist
When I was given the report, I was told my problems were mainly caused by anxiety and not Asperger’s Syndrome. I braced myself for the erasure of an autism-free diagnosis. No such moment came around, but I still worried about what the report would say.
I decided that if they didnt agree with my self-diagnosis, they just weren’t aware of the full range of symptoms i had identified. They couldn’t explain how much I identified with the lives and experiences of autistic people.
I scanned through the report in the library, seeing that it said I had several Asperger’s traits. My mum didn’t read it until the next day, and with a keener eye than mine, she read the following:
The possibility of Robert exhibiting traits usually associated with Autism Soectrum Disorder was first screened using the Cambridge Lifespan Asperger’s Syndrome Service (CLASS) initial screen. Robert obtained 90% of factors usually associated with Asperger’s Syndrome, indicating a need for further exploration.
It’s still not an official diagnosis, but I was told it was quite hard to get one in this part of the UK. 90% is incredibly high though, and it’s proof enough for me. Professional data like this has been a long time coming. I don’t feel as validated as I expected to feel at this point, because I’ve spent so much time proving it for myself.
It’s more… “DAMN STRAIGHT!”