Flapjack State

I got a report back from the educational psychologist

When I was given the report, I was told my problems were mainly caused by anxiety and not Asperger’s Syndrome. I braced myself for the erasure of an autism-free diagnosis. No such moment came around, but I still worried about what the report would say.

I decided that if they didnt agree with my self-diagnosis, they just weren’t aware of the full range of symptoms i had identified. They couldn’t explain how much I identified with the lives and experiences of autistic people.

I scanned through the report in the library, seeing that it said I had several Asperger’s traits. My mum didn’t read it until the next day, and with a keener eye than mine, she read the following:

The possibility of Robert exhibiting traits usually associated with Autism Soectrum Disorder was first screened using the Cambridge Lifespan Asperger’s Syndrome Service (CLASS) initial screen. Robert obtained 90% of factors usually associated with Asperger’s Syndrome, indicating a need for further exploration.

It’s still not an official diagnosis, but I was told it was quite hard to get one in this part of the UK. 90% is incredibly high though, and it’s proof enough for me. Professional data like this has been a long time coming. I don’t feel as validated as I expected to feel at this point, because I’ve spent so much time proving it for myself.

I’m getting so used to identifying this way, that my response isn’t “thank god for that!”

It’s more… “DAMN STRAIGHT!”